- Your husband has to have surgery
- You have family take the day off to take care of the children
- Your husband has to halt his extremely busy work schedule
- Your husband is in his hospital gown for 3 hours then they say there is a hold on proceeding
- Somebody drops the ball in the Dr.'s office and does not have the surgery certified in the 3 weeks it has been scheduled
- Insurance suggests the husband tries compression sock first
- Hospital tells you, no surgery you can go home
- Husband is so mad he does not speak and will not wait for discharge papers and waltzs out of the hospital
- Not a word is spoken in a 1 hr car ride
- I head dive into my max points of the day in a barbecue beef loaded baked potato cause that is what a this stressed fat girl does
- I spend the next 3 hours speaking to the supervisor of God himself to find out who dropped the ball and how they plan on picking up that ball and run with it
- I don't have anything to wear for a wedding a few weeks
- I choke on old woman perfume in the plus size department
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Loves When...
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Helllloooo Lover!
Am I the only one who dearly misses "Sex and the City"? Oh, the episode when she saw the perfect Christian Louboutin shoes in the window for her "big" date with Mr. Big. I wish...It was not the easiest of pregnancies for my body. I had to stop teaching Spin classes at 19 weeks and thought well I will just take easy walks to stay active. Every form of activity led to pre term labor and before too long I was on bed rest for the third trimester. As far as my diet, umm it would best be described as a free for all buffet, geez! After all my incubating and gluttony on February 9th it all became well worth it to have my Lil' Mama join our family.
Hello lover, to starting my journey from square one, once again. I can clear the pounds lost tab back to a big fat 0. At one time it stated 88lbs. lost. Am I freaking out about it? Hell no! I will get there slowly but surely. I can see me losing the weight again and I have always been a fan of believing is achieving. I have decided against sprinting back to WeWa till Lil Mama is 3 months old, one month from now. I have to let my stress level come down. I am a high strung parent that is a slave to schedules and well Lil Mama literally shits on my schedule. Experience has taught me that by 3 months they will find their nook and sleep better. If not at 3 months old she will be old enough to fend for herself at kid's club at the gym. HA! Not that the gym is the be all end all of my weight loss. To me it is 85% what I put in my body and I can not commit fully at this juncture. So we will say that I am dabbling in eating better by having a salad, fruits and veggies with my crap choices.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Global Ride DVD's Hawaii Rides Giveaway Winner
The winner was chosen via True Random Number since Lil' Buster refused to do the drawing for me and no way I am not getting in front of a camera these days unless you catch as a moving background target. I just numbered each person who commented they wanted the DVD's in order consecutively for a total of 9. The results are below which make Paula the winner. Paula contact me to get these DVD's to ya and let your fake Hawaii riding adventure begin ;-) True Random Number Generator
Monday, September 28, 2009
Global Ride DVD's Hawaii RidesReview/Giveaway
I was sent these Global Ride DVD's a long time ago, like March long ago. I had tried it out and just had not gotten the time to review, heck I barely blog much as it is. There are three DVD's in the set I received. These are to be used indoors either with your trainer set up or maybe a Spinner bike if you have one. I will focus on "StrenDurance in Hawaii".I find indoor rides on the trainer to be quite mundane and it pushes me to the point of insanity. I do understand that it is sometimes a necessary evil due to schedules, weather, which will be a big factor as winter approaches, or the specific training goal one is trying to achieve on a particular ride that could be dangerous with traffic and such. Last ride I did indoors I opened up my back door and contemplated throwing bike with trainer attached and all in the ravine behind my house. For me it is really difficult since I already do plenty of indoor rides in Spin classes and it is a completely different energy.
The DVD consists of landscape with music and coaching. The landscape is almost like there is a camera attached to the cyclists bike that is actually riding the course. At times they switch the view to a car back view so the cyclist is in the picture. There is a coach guiding you trough cadence, heart rate and different cues as gearing up, down and other things to focus on to get the most from you ride. You kind of hear the lady huffing on the mic which is my huge pet peeve. She is also doing the ride on her trainer with you, but as an instructor I can tell you move the mic away from your mouth a little. However, she does a good job of describing at what level you should be riding at. Giving cues of adding gear, cadence goals, and heart rate or perceived exertion goals. There is also music on the DVD, which is the killer for me. It is like that bad keyboard music and it is not motivating at all. Not that you need music to motivate you but indoors you might need that extra umph! Still some people might enjoy this and find it helpful.
There are some features on the DVD to help customize it more to your liking. I like that you can turn the music on/off. Even turn on/off the coaching as well. For instance, you could play your own music yet still have the coaching or vice versa or turn off all audible all together if you prefer. The landscape is a nice feature if you find that just watching TV shows becomes more of a distraction and throws off your performance goals you set for yourself on a ride, i.e. a TT ride.
Overall, it is not at the caliber of a CompuTrainer kind of ride. I do not think that at all, then again the price is monumentaly less. The Hawaii box set I received sells for $75 on their website. I also did not turn that green color like when I go to Bree Wee's blog and see her ride pics. It might work for you if you want to change up your indoor routine or maybe add some variance to your ride if you just ride for time each ride. Like running, the discipline of cycling should not be ride as hard as you can for time everytime. It is important to have different training rides to build your endurance, and strength as a cyclist. I would recommend these videos for people who maybe have not read up on cycling training programs, not fortunate enough to have a coach, likes outdoor visuals while riding indoors, or the benefit of a great knowledgeable indoor cycling instructor. If you would like to learn more about the Global Ride cycling DVD's you can go to their website by clicking here.
I know I myself will not make future use of the Global Ride DVD's so I will mail my Global Ride Hawaii box set valued at $75 to someone who would benefit from it. If you are interested post a comment saying, "I WANT IT!" and I will draw a winner next week and ship it out to ya ;-)
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I'm That Pre-Pubescent Boy Who Said You Had Cooties

Random Thought of The Day: Is really just a tip that my blog will touch on everything these days since no official training is going on. Next post I promise will be the review & giveaway on on the Global Ride Virtual Cycling DVDs.
Monday, August 17, 2009
13 Weeks
No, not how long I have been away from the blog. That number is actually quite higher, if anyone noticed my mindless rambling absence. Thirteen weeks is how far along I am. Yep, we are adding another one to the family and are thrilled! We started thinking we would start trying after Ironman 70.3 in New Orleans. In fact my friends thought it was too much of a sign that when I was crossing the finish line the song, "She's Having My Baby" by Paul Anka was playing. Weird I know, but even weirder is why in the world would they play that shitty song at a finish chute?!? Then again by the time I finished the DJ must have ran out of good songs. HA!
It has been a rough first trimester. With Lil' Buster the first trimester really was a piece of cake. Yum, did somebody say cake?? Seriously, I had no symptoms and I was heavier with Lil' Buster in addition to not doing a lick of exercise. I thought this one would be a piece of cake. Who the hell keeps mentioning cake? This time around I have been dealing with, nausea, acne, headaches, diarrhea, constipation, fatigue, vertigo, vomiting, weight gain, weight loss, frequent urination, depression, veins(I feel like a vampire), heavy breasts, tender breasts, cramps. Pretty much I'm dealing with a Viagra commercial disclaimer except for the 4 hour erection, but if I could have a 4 hour erection I'm sure I would have that too.
Things are starting to look up these last few days. The nausea has subsided except for the occasional surprise visits. The fatigue is what I am dealing with the most still. I'm still working my SPIN classes. I do have my rough moments in class when teaching 2 back to back. Getting better though.
As far as running through my pregnancy....I am not going out on a limb by saying it will not be the case. I was not even running before I got pregnant dealing with injury so bringing it in the mix at this juncture would not be the wisest. I will instead stick with low impact cardiovascular exercises, SPIN, elliptical, walking, things of that nature.
I will probably be blogging more regularly. Watching that "Julia & Julie" movie made me miss blogging. I also have a couple reviews/giveaways over the the next week. The companies who sent me the items months and months ago have been wondering what happened to me.Thanks for stopping by and remembering, Viv.
12 weeks Random Thought of The Day: Why when reading Perez Hilton I found the urge to click on a link that states, "CLICK HERE to check out Zac Efron shirtless and showing off his butt dimples!!!!! " Oh my he is like 18!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
I Need A Fast Car To Get Back On The Wagon I Jumped Off Of!
When I saw this cover at the grocery store it bit me in the ass! No, not the Elizabeth Edwards, my cheating husband drama? If it was that you would be seeing my crazy ass on that cuckoo bird, Nancy Grace's show for having Shane's balls dipped in fur and using them as rear view mirror decor. LOL! It was the Kirstie Alley article (if you can call things in People articles). There she was stating how she had fallen off the wagon(I refer to the wagon as a healthy way of living & eating). There are a few things I don't agree with Alley states in the article. For one she is planning this whole new "plan" that is top secret to help people lose weight. Listen hun, pretty much there is no secret fabu fountain of weight loss that you have tapped in to. Secondly she says, " If I spent as much time working out as I do worrying about being fat, I would be fabulously built." Umm, hello I can't give her that either. I was spending countless hours, miles, gallons o' sweat working out but the weight on the scale kept mounting. For me, this is FOR ME it equates to about 85% what I eat and about 15% exercise. Not that I condone exercise, the complete opposite. Just for me there is more to my weight loss equation then working out.
I was born a fat girl, really. LOL! It runs in my family too. Seriously, I have seen my parents up and down the scale my whole life.
exhibit 2 thin
by the way they are looking hella a good at the present time
I am also guilty of being up and down the scale in large numbers. When you reach the down side of the scale there is always this promise of, "I will never be that fucking fat again!" Unfortunately for a lot of people that struggle with weight it becomes a promise we soon forget....
down
by the way did I think there was going to be a scrunchie shortage??
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upI can also tell you the countless methods I used to get "down". There was the smoking,starving, drinking straight Bacardi limon on ice diet. The exercise of course came from dancing in da' club. The Quick Weight Loss Center diet, where pretty much everything was off limits. My meals then consisted of 4-6 cups of lettuce with a 6oz chicken no dressing and of course no salt. During that diet, I felt weak and did not have motivation to exercise. The LA Weight Loss diet, which was a looser version of QWLC diet. Then of course the countless times I would "try" unsuccessfully on my own. I would be all gung ho, going to the gym eating right then have a slip up and crucify myself, which would lead to a bigger downward spiral. Then my most drastic and biggest mistake, vertical banded gastroplasty. Yep, what people call stomach stapling. To all these methods I am not saying they are wrong and do not work for anyone. For some people they find long lasting success with no complications. For me these methods did not work. Each time I had a few set backs the weight would come back and would always settle to 10lbs above of where I started. Here I am now having a set back while on Weight Watchers. OK a big set back I have managed to put back on 51lbs since August 2008. At one point that side bar read 91lbs dropped! Whoa, that really sucks the big one! I was 30lbs to goal,UGH! Can you believe I never stopped paying for the online Weight Watchers service?? I guess to cancel the service would be a bold face way of me stating I was done with it. The good news I am not all the way back to where I started. The better news is that I am willing to dust myself off and get back up, well down. hehehe! Time to change the side bar pounds dropped and work my way back down from there.
May 2008 38lbs from goal and in matchy matchy running shorts that do not fit this summer
The plan:
I have been back on Weight Watchers hardcore since Friday, May 8. I had a friend willing to go to meetings with me. Not that I expected the meetings to be a sort of "come to Jesus" meeting. I just know that I lacked some of the will power I had when I started doing the program on my own online back in June 2007. I needed that accountability the meetings provide. Sometimes you also need somewhere you can speak out loud of what you are going through with out driving people in your life insane. The more you surround yourself with what you are trying to achieve the more you can competently conquer it.
I am no expert on nutrition, exercise, diet, surgeries but have had my own struggles. If you ever have a questions and think my experience can help or you just want someone to talk about it with e-mail me. I don't bite unless you catch me between 7P-9P, during those hours I would bite and chew almost anything :-)
I have been told I am an inspiration by some, but to me I am just a real person that deals with their own battles. My battle is my weight and this is part of my life. I have no shame in putting it out there. There will be ups and downs, no doubt. It is about staying on the journey which is constantly seeking my well being, physically and mentally.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Ironman 70.3 New Orleans Race Report
scroll to bottom all the way to race day. There is also a short movie after the report.
OK, got carried away there.
I have been completely dragging on writing this report. At first it was just gathering the thoughts on what still felt like a dream scrambled in pieces coming clear to me slowly. Then it became an actual loss of words. For those of you who know me all to well you know I hardly ever find myself at a loss for words. You know when Viv shuts up, it is serious.
Thursday April 02
I went to the Dr. Thursday morning and she agreed to give some Xanax to calm my crazy ass nerves down a bit. I thought it would help me sleep since there had been no sleep in my life for days, otay weeks. Then headed for a pedi, which should be mandatory with all the feet one sees at a tri. Later that evening I took my bike over to Tri Sis's & Da Man's house, who so sweetly transported my bike for me to New Orleans. I knew SOW would be in good hands with it's QR cousins. Came home finished packing up everything, triple checking e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. I had already had a dream that I forget my helmet and the expo only had Darth Vader style helmets. After all that, I took my Xanax and felt like I had 4 glass of wine or easier said a bottle. No sleep came with that effect but I felt totally chill.
Friday April 03
Morning came around and at 8:30A I was picking up my girls for a road trip to New Orleans. Shane had a lot of meetings on Friday so he planned on flying in to New Orleans on Saturday. I was glad I had Kelli, Lisa, Phyllis, & Chandra there with me. They definitely had me laughing. I did have my quiet times and they let me have those to. They had made awesome signs for me and made plenty of arrangements between work, children, even pet sitting to come support ME...It is something I will never forget. Of course as with any road trip there are stories to be told. All I am sayin' is Burger King in Braux Bridge, hehehe! The homies were staying in the Quarter so when they weren't cheering me on they could make thier own fun. They said they would see me as much or as little as I wanted. I took da' girls with me to the Expo since I knew this is when it would all really sink in especially at the briefing. While at the briefing I saw Steve in a Speedo, who had a PR check out his cool report. I was stunned that I recognized him without his yellow short shorts. It is always nice to meet other bloggy peeps. I got a text from Cassie/Tiggs , (check out her report) while at the briefing asking where u b? I was like at the briefing, she said me too. It was like that movie where the operator says, "the call is coming from inside the house..." LOL! We popped our heads up and did a once over. Once our eyes met we gave each other the runners nod. Our glance from across the room said it all without a word. I know she could sense my nerves as I could sense hers. There were a few rules that M-dot does at their events that I had no idea about. Like, 4 bike length distance, penalty tents, opting out of the swim?!? No biggie but when you already nervous, new information can rattle the cage. We got our stamps and headed over to get our number. 1391! 13 is my lucky number so I was willing to take all luck thrown at me. The Expo was about the size of my bedroom. I bullshit you not. Da' girls were awesome and totally spoiled me. They got me a Ironman70.3 bag and the official artwork for the event. I left them at their hotel and headed to meet some of Team Strive, Leslie, Dee, their better halves, Tri Sis & Da Man at the hotel in Metairie. The hotel recommended this great little Italian place so we piled in my Yukon XL to discover it was a block away. It took more effort to back the beast outta the parking lot then it would have taken to walk there. HAHAHA! We had a very lovely dinner. Times like that make me thankful of the great people that have come into my life because of triathlon & running. When you look back at these races it is just not the race itself. It is everything that surrounds it as well that make them so memorable. After dinners some of us took a little field trip to get some supplies at Whole Foods. They didn't have my triple processed non organic oatmeal crap I eat. It was still a fun little outing full of u-turns. I am super glad we stayed out of the New Orleans hoopla. There was so much traffic in the city with the 3000 people racing plus the pirate convention(it was funny seeing them in their full get up around town), and teacher convention. We were away from the chaos in our own little bubble with full kitchens, which kept the anxiety at bay. I was in bed by 10P but still no sleep till way past midnight.
Saturday April 04
I met the same Strive group from dinner the night before and we headed out to check out the course. After some more u-turns(can I just say New Orleans should consider making the city less confusing) we got to transition. It was so impressive yet intimidating to me to see this HUGE (since Paris Hilton is now endorsing this word, bimbo) area getting hundreds of racks set up preparing for 3000 athletes the following day. We walked over to the swim exit to see Natascha Badmann squeezing into her teeny tiny wetsuit. We chatted a little with her then headed over to swim start. Some of the hubbys took notice to not swim into the cove at about 500 in but to stay close to the booeys to not add extra purposeless distance. Reasons like this is why it is good to check things out before hand. Before we took off we chatted momentarily with Heather Gollnick. It was really cool watching her and the family pull up in the Hummer. It is a family thing coming to watch Mom, so cool. We then proceeded to drive the bike course. It was hard not to think that this is a long 56 mile drive we would be covering the same distance on our bikes the next day. At one point I looked at Dee and we simultaneously took deep breath. The gang split up as they went on to drive the run course.I had to leave to pick up Shane who was flying in. Shane and I then met da' girls for lunch in the Quarter, where they shared all their fun stories from Bourbon Street the night before. After that went back to the hotel. I grabbed my bike rode around the hotel checking the gears and such. Oh, there was a fight with a biatch in a Lexus wag who could not share the right lane when she had total access to the left lane. She annoyingly blew on the horn rolled down her window and said, "what is your problem?" Oh no she didn't. I uncliped and released the tension that had been boiling up in me to this race. I yelled," me, what the fuck is your problem get in the other lane you $$^t!" I will save your eyes from the last word. It is one of those I keep really deep in my pocket of cuss words. Ahh, did that feel good though. LOL! Loaded up the bike with Shane and headed in to bike check in. I let some air out of the tires like I remembered the stories of blown tires in the dead heat. I did make a mistake that had me worrying most of the night. I left my bike shoes clipped in and then stressed they would be missing race morning. By 5P I was worn out! All the stresses leading up to the big day with lack of sleep had me skipping dinner with Team Strive that evening. We ordered a pizza laid in bed while watching some TV. I was asleep by 10P and awake at 2A ready to race. I made myself catch a few more hours of restless sleep.
Sunday April 05 Ironman 70.3 New Orleans RACE DAY
The morning started out with Shane making breakfast. He also managed to set off the smoke detector while burning the sausage. We had to open the windows, grab a towel and fan out the smoke detector. Typical Viv drama, HAHAHA! Now, that is the way I like to start my mornings...Shane loaded up everything and we were gone. (As I write this I feel the butterflies I felt that morning.) It was still a bit dark in transition and the area was a buzz. My bike shoes were still there clipped on. Whew! The chick behind me was freaking out. She had left her bike shoes at the hotel. Deja Vu! I had all my stuff laid out with in 45 minutes. It was a longer race so I wanted to be sure I went over everything. I made my way over to the buses to swim start. Then the volunteers started saying you better start walking to everyone. I just was not prepared in my cheap throw away flips to walk more then a mile. This race official was like, "you are doing 70.3 what is 1.2 more?" Umm, in these shitty flip flops and moist streets could be my fall before the race. Then of course I am walking by this group talking about Kona and how easy this course is in comparison. So wishing I had my iPod....I still had not seen a familiar face since Shane dropped me off transition. Then at swim start I see Jon Walk. He had me pose for a pic. I had the biggies grin, mostly because I was happy to see a face I knew. Within seconds there came the Team Strive gang. I think I hugged Leslie tightly. I guess to feel comforted. We made our way to the port a cans. The line was unreal! Cassie and I would not have made our swim waves if we waited. I was OK with it since it was an in water start, if you know what I mean. We shimmied into our wetsuits. Cassie and I hung out till her start. She was 4 minutes before me. So I only had to be with me and my nerves for 4 more minutes. Once I was in the water there was no turning back, the nerves would be left there in Lake Pontchartrain. Once I was in my holding area I hear Shane screaming, "Viv, Viv" Ahh, I was hoping I could see him before I went off. He could see my tears of fear building. For the first time he understood not to say something crazy like, if you don't wanna do it we can leave. He said, "no crying your my tough girl, sweet." I just needed to see his face before the challenging day ahead. My sister was on the phone telling me she loved me, and I could do this. Da' girls gave me hugs and told me the best thing, they were already proud of me.....
wave went in the water. For me that meant a total time of T-9 hours.
Swim: 1.2miles (59:17 /3:04.4/100m)
We walked into the water with the start booeys within 15 yards. The plan was to get out of the water fresh. I stayed relaxed, never thinking about what is in here or even worst what was. All that stuff that can mess with your head. It was point to point, meaning from the start you never see that final booey with the naked eye, which I also tried not to think about. I kept my mind on the day as a whole. About how much I wanted to be here, finishing this race and if that meant swimming 1.2 miles well so be it....My plan, just swim all chill till I see I am there. It was one of the few times in a race where I barely made contact with other swimmers. I did find myself going towards the cove and focused on staying further from it. I am sure I added distance with all my weaving, but I can't walk straight much less swim straight. Another nice thing about the swim course was that the shoreline was so close. It was cool to have the spectators walk alongside and cheer you on. My wetsuit was giving me a hard time. I am guessing that in the super humid air walking from transition to swim start that most of my Body Glide had dissipated. The neck of my wetsuit was rubbing on my neck badly. I had to stop a few times to try to adjust as much as I could. Every time I did that I would hear Shane and da' girls screaming, "Go Viv!" I loved that...Once I made it to the 1/2 mark booey my Timex read 28:29. It felt good to know there was a large possibilty I could be out of the water before an hour.
T1: (8:46)
There is a story to this one. I jogged out of the water with my suit half off before hitting the mat with everything going well, but had to hit up the port a can for a potty break. I just can't pee and swim, never can never will. I changed into my bike jersey out of my baby size tri top. I knew I would be pulling down on it for the next 69.1 miles. I wanted to be sure to be as "comfortable" as possible. In a sprint or an OLY...why I never, but this was no OLY and surely not a sprint. I took my time at my rack to make sure I grabbed everything. Well as I almost hit the mat out and felt my back pocket to feel that I left all my Accel gels, fanfreackintastic. One of the volunteers held my bike as I jogged all the way back. Got my stuff and off I went.
Bike: 56miles (3:43.48 /15mph)
Leaving the transition area they had us to this little cluster loopty loop around the transition area. The pro was getting some good cowbell before heading out, and letting me grab my bearings, so to speak. Letting the stomach settle, get used to getting lungs full of air all that great stuff that comes with being on land. I recall seeing Jon right after leaving transition and giving the camera that genuine, I am so glad to be outta the water smile. The way out was really good for me. I was keeping the HR in check, getting great speed with easy effort. About 20 minutes into it I went to grab my pb&j and it was so hot that the peanut butter melted and was all in the zip lock, ewww! It was frozen when I left transition in the morning. It always worked during training but I did not expect it to get that warm in 2 hours. Oh well, that is why you plan. I had packed extra gels just in case. Began to take in the gel as planned, kept up with hydrating. When I passed by mile 15 aid station I wanted to grab a water to pour on my head to cool off. Well they did not have water just gels, and bars. I did not think too much on it since I had my own fluids and knew if anything I could surely make do till the last aid station. All is good when you plan, but sometimes things go down that you can not plan for. My aero container flipped out at about mile 20. The larger chamber malfunctioned. I don't know if I did not connect the straws right but anything below the straw connection I could not get anything out. I finished off the 16oz water in my cage and the top 16oz I could get out of the big chamber. I then changed the plan to just do a bottle exchange at mile 30 aid station, to top of the aero container. During training I did not take in as much fluid as I was taking in today. Then again much warmer and humid, mouth a little dry from a minor salty swim and oh yea it was race day and as much as you try to mimic it, ain't nothing like the real thing. I chilled out since I knew there would be an aid station coming up shortly. I got to mile 30 aid station shocked to find again, no water, no Gatorade, NOT a liquid to be found! I found myself with no fluids and extremely thirsty....At that moment as I am passing the discard zone I see half full water bottles that people had thrown after whatever they may have used them for. I pulled over grabbed one removed the lid and refilled the aero container. I was in a bit of a panic mode because thinking back now I should have found a couple more half empty bottles to fill my cage bottle and both chambers of the aero instead of just the 16oz side. I really thought what I did there would hold me over to mile 48 aid station. At this time is when I started seeing other Team Strivers. I can't remember the order but I know it was such an up lifter! We would yell at each other, "gooooo xxx!" I had just made the turn and could see them on the opposite side. I think I forgot to mention that after mile 15 the wind began whipping up. It was a brutal head wind from mile 23ish on for me. Even though we looped it felt as the wind would change just enough to become nothin' but head wind. Reports later would say that the wind was topping off at 17mph at the time I was out on the bike course. It was so disheartening to push push push and get nothing out of it. It would feel like I had the damn bike on the trainer at times, pedaling to nowhere. I began to feel the energy draining from me. I was just looking forward to some fluids when I arrived at the mile 47 aid station, my body was demanding it. I was on empty and so where they. We were being told, "hold what you got till transition." Umm, being that I had nothing that would mean just that nothing till transition. I saw Shane & da' girls giving me cowbell at around mile 50, it was much welcomed and needed. At mile 51 is where things were getting extremely ugly for me. I would start to pass the people carrying the bikes in on thier back. Or even worst just sitting there on the side of the road with their heads down in thier hands, the day for them was over. When I say people I mean more than one, it was dozens. How do I recall feeling at that point? I just wanted my day to be over too. It was a mental, physical battle for the next 5 miles. You may think, oh Viv you have already done 51 what is 5 more miles....Trust me, for me each mile was getting more difficult then the last. It included those brutal head winds, nearing dehydration, and the bridge and overpass that seemed challenging on the way out now on the return quickly seemed impossible. As Team Strivers were now passing me they would give me those encouraging words I needed to hear. Even if one of the encouraging words were, "this is bullshit!" HAHAHA! I just kept telling myself I have to get a chance at that 13.1 miles. In my mind once I was at 13.1 miles to go, there would be nothing that would stop me, not even myself.
I remember coming into T2 a little disoriented and very pist off!! I was feeling the effects of not having enough fluid on the bike course! Shane & da' girls where at the fence line by my transition area. They all stayed silent. I think they did not know what to tell me. Shane tried to hand me his Gatorade. I told him no. If I were to get DQ'd for outside assistance. I would have gone postal... I grabbed two half full water bottles thrown by the fence line took the lid off and sucked them down. I did not want to work on my Fuel Belt bottles becuase who knew what was waiting for me on the run. I grabbed my stuff and made my way out. I felt weak, like I was barely moving. They had some gallons of water as I left transition. One of the voulenteers asked if it was OK to pour some on me that I did not look well. He then asked the question I did not want to hear, "Ma'am do you want to continue?" I will be fine I told him just needed fluids. I started to get a little jog on to feel the legs coming out of transition to hear the man next to me tell me, "It ain't worth dying over!" Shit, did I look that terrible?!?
Run(or sumfin like it): 13.1miles (3:39.17/16:44min/mile)
I took my first step out on the run course to be greeted by Shane looking very serious. He proceeds to tell me(he had to remind me later what he said), " Vivian, it is not worth risking your health. It is a race, and I will still love and not think less of you. We have a little boy at home." I told him not to worry I would feel better once I got some Cytomax in. I waved him bye and kept walking along. I knew I had to start the run/walk intervals but now was not the time, walking was challenging enough. Around mile 2.5 I started bringing in a little jog it would last like 30 seconds then I got over it real quick. At this time I saw Da' Man on the opposite side. He looked happy to see me still at it. Hell, he just looked happy. It was great to see him though I needed a smile right then and there. At that point I put aside the thoughts that I might be walking a 1/2 marathon. It is pretty easy to do when you see so many doing the same, and suprisingly I had a little time to play with. I put a smile on my face and kept striving! I kept on plan with the gels & hydration. Can I just say, I LOVE our Team Strive uniforms. First, we can't miss each other out on the course with our bright green. Secondly, the encouraging words you get from spectators, "keep striving, go strive, you make striving look easy!" I even got a, "I saw your Strive sisters and they will be waiting for you at the finish line." Yet, my fave funniest cheer from a spectator came from this lady with not a tooth one who looked at me dead in the eyes like she was putting a spell on me, "I see you, girl, I see you, hahahaha!" She did the whole pointing to herself for I, the pointing to the eyeballs for see, then the final point to me for you. Funny, yet freaky all in one! At mile 4 I did not prepare for this chub rub under my arms. I was walking with the arms kinda out from my body when this girl out on the course heading out asked if I needed Body Glide. I was thrilled and shrieked, "yes, please!" She said, "I looked like I needed some." Got the hook up and felt mo' betta. A little after that Jon came around on the bike since he had press creds and kept me a company for a bit. It was nice to let the mind float aways for a few. After, he left I was ready. I picked up a jog at mile 5 and was feeling good. I kept it going and at mile 6. Shane & da' girls where there with signs, cowbells, and screams! Shane looked pleased to see me feeling good. I was blowing kisses so I knew I was good right then and there. I was able to maintain whatever run/walk thing I had going till about mile 7.5. Each mile quickly become more tolling on the body. My run intervals became non exsistent and the walks got nothing but slower. I recall at mile 9 it was hot and humid. We were going through a park with shadded trees. My mind was just telling me to lay down under the tree that they would come find me. I bullshit you not, I was really thinking that. It was getting harder to fight the majority of my thoughts that were all telling me to stop. My walk pace had gone from 14:40/min/mile to a struggling 19:15/min/mile. It all felt like all the same laborious exertion. I believe after mile 10 you could label what I was doing was crawling. It was the same small group of people around me at this point. I remember these two annoying chicks who were relaying the run leg, yet walking fresh as cucumbers talking about beignets, and how lovely the city is. I knew I still had fight in me if I had enough energy to want to slap them. Then there was another girl who was definately in my boat. The last 3 miles she would crawl past me then I would crawl past her. We remained silent but acknowledged each others precense with the most deep painful sounding grunts. I found myslef letting out 2 grunts per grueling extenuating step. I could tell we were coming in closer to the Quarter. Then I heard a volunteer say less than 800 yards to go for the turn onto Decatur Street. I made the turn and saw Shane running on the sidewalk next to me. I could not finish with a crawl, had to dig deep to finish with what my body had left. Picked up a shuffle, every step felt like stepping in a pile of flaming glass. It hurt, everywhere.
The finish line was fast approaching. I gave high fives to da' girls who were standing along side of the chute. I high fived any hand that was put out in front of me. I found it hard to catch my breath, almost hyper ventilating at this point. I was fighting back the emotions that were boiling over. I crossed that finish line, and I did not even let the volunteer put the medal around my neck. I grabbed it out of her poor hands and put it on myself, like I could not wait one millisecond. I dizzily looked over trying to find Shane. He grabbed and hugged me, and boy did I boil over. I was not crying, I was sobbing! My friend, Kelli later told me she stopped filming because felt like she was invading a special moment. All those hurdles had been jumped. The finish line was crossed! As much pressure I put on the moment to be amazing to how grand I dreamt it would be,well it did not even hold a candle to it.
It was much much more, and I DID IT!
Movie of photos & video. Thanks Coach K for the song....
Right after I hugged Shane, I went and squeezed da' girls and team mates with whatever energy I had left . With our embrace you could feel the energy of what we had done. The hurdles and sacrifices each person faces are thier own, yet they, we keep striving...Within minutes I began to feel dizzy. I could not drink water or, the Recoverite and felt faint. Shane & Da' Man walked me over to the med tent. Where they quickly sat me down and did a couple things, I can't remember what. Next thing I remember I had an IV and came to on some dudes barf, nice. Shane was telling me how his BlackBerry had been blowing up all day with people responding to my updates. He read all the amazing things my friends, family, and Coach were saying about me. They ran a liter of fluids and recomended another. I felt better and thought I should leave some room for others. We then drove over to transition to get my bike. I ran into the girl that was in the same boat as me the last 3 miles of the run. We just looked at each other said congratulaitons and hugged. I told you there was a silent comaradie thing going on betwen us.
We then stopped off at Walgreens got me a chocolate milk and that helped a bit. I still did not want to even think about food. Headed to the hotel where Shane drew me out an ice bath. I am pretty sure I heard that sizzling sound when I put my legs in. Later that evening we went to dinner in the Quarter with da' girls. Some of Team Strive was there at the restaurant. I think we are that the point that we can sniff each other out like dogs. I barely could walk but made my way to the bathroom when I overheard this man saying, "that there girrrrl did the Ironman and now she can't walk." Yep that would be me, I just smiled...I could not leave New Orleans without shuffling my way through Bourban Street with a hurricane and a big ol' straw so we did just that. I slept like a solid rock that night, no doubt!
Recovery
It has been slow. There was the 3 days where I could barely walk. Then a week and a half of being extremely swollen, retaining water. The Dr. said my electrolytes (magnesium potassium
calcium, and chloride) where all out whack but not enough for it to be dangerous. The swelling is now almost all gone. I am back in PT where Paula is working on getting the knots in my legs released. There is some fluid in the muscle and swelling, but as you know the legs were not so fantastic going in anyhow. I have had a couple swims, just pressed for time these days taking care of things that were put on hold for a solid 2 months. I am back to teaching SPIN classes just taking it easy with the resistance and no clipless shoes, it puts a lot of pressure on the calf. The running will wait till the legs are somewhat healthy again. I am jonesing to run but on legs that are ready for it.
Fun questions I get asked....
Was the bike the easiest for you since your a SPIN instructor? Why yes it was. In fact it took me 8 hours to do the race becuase I insisted I do the bike course twice, that easy.
When are you going to do it again? Well, if there was one next weekend I would be all over it.
What was the hardest part? Hard?! What gave you the idea that anything was hard.
Are you going to do the real Ironman now? No, the fake 1/2 ones are much funner plus less training.
When is your next race? Next race?? Life is a race, get in gear buddy.
How did your marathon go? It went awesome! I am pretty sure I qualified for Boston.
Did you win? Yep, I crushed all the people that took longer then 8:37.55
Holla
Friday, April 10, 2009
Still Mustering The Thoughts On The IM70.3 Race Report
The guys at Ironman wanted me to give them a shout out.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
"I Want My Old Wife Back, I Miss Her"
If I did not move forward without even trying the 70.3 distance this weekend after all the hurdles I jumped it would all be pointless. I know there are other 1/2 Ironman's this is not the only one this year, but I am not planning to attack the distance again this year. I would close the book on this distance without even trying to write the final chapter. I came to conclusion that I would regret more not trying then I would to try but not complete the distance(the distance has an 8hr course limit). My heart, mind, and soul needs to try to move forward with the rest of my plans versus mourning the what if's.So many lovely cards e-mail texts, comments....
I still can't believe how many people have reached out to me.
Your thoughts will be with me this weekend.
Thank You!
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
FOCUS
It is time to really FOCUS.
I have been filling any free time with anything that keeps me from thinking of the reality of what is to come. When I do think of it fear consumes my mind. Every time someones asks about the "big day" I get a nerve stricken look on my face. It is much easier to ignore the quickly coming event then deal with the reality of it. It's is time to play this day in my mind over and over. When I do this course on April 5th it should seem like deja vu, like I have swam, ridden, run this course before.
I want to thank you all for the support you show me. You say I inspire you but seriously you guys inspire me. I printed all the comments from my last post and put it with race maps to read when I lose focus.
I hope to come back here in 12 days and tell you I AM IRONMAN 70.3!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Road Blocks or Hurdles
It has been a rough few months. As some may know I tore my right calf muscle over Thanksgiving. After 6 weeks off of all activity and physical therapy I thought I was in the clear. Only to begin having trouble with the left calf. With the injury, I take one step forward and two steps back. I have a fabulous physical therapist who is also a triathlete and a friend. With her help I have been nursing it twice a week. For every run there is a PT session to follow. I also use the term run very loosely. A run for me is now classified as 5R/1W at a controlled pace. If I go out too fast the calf seizes up and the whole run is scrapped. The runs average between 12:30-14:20 minute paces. That also means things like bricks rarely if at all happen in my training. Since, it would mean running on consecutive days, which sends me many steps back. No speedwork nothing crazy...So, in other words it is a keeping it "healthy enough" till New Orleans 70.3. Needless to say, I will be going in more than a little under trained in the running department.
There were also family concerns that tested me during these past few months. My Lil' Buster got some freaky virus that did not allow him to walk when he woke up one morning. It was a huge scare! It took about a week before he was back to his normal self. I did miss one or two workouts, not much really. It did require me to leave Shane in charge in the evenings so I can go for my workouts. Doing that added a lot of stress on me mentally. I felt like a bad mom leaving Lil' Buster when he needed me for my selfish goals and aspirations. Also, the weekends are my LONG workouts that have me gone most of the mornings and leave me drained physically. My family is used to my upbeat chipper self. My parents are super ol' school they really don't understand my being away from home for all this training. My mom especially, she says, "I am a stay at home mom who really is not at home." Yes, I am one of those people who needs approval from her family, especially my mothers. It added a lot of stress to my mind. It had me questioning is all this for that really worth it.
I am accustomed to keeping a clean home, dinners on the table in the evening, bills paid, sending thank you notes with little hearts over the i's, not forgetting a birthday, thoughtful friend, all things get done when Viv is large and in charge. Yep, your usual Mrs. Cleaver with a little attitude. It is me though and being a neat/control freak and on top of my game keeps me sane. That was all quickly slipping. I forgot everything. When things are due, friends birthdays, introducing people that have shared dinners at my home together, bathtubs so nasty that I loathed taking a shower at home, beds never got made, laundry would stack up to no end. In the mix of all this my suburbia SUV blew up costing thousands to fix. Also, home renovations were going on to. You know how that goes, one word summation CHAOS. We had wood floors put in and a few paint changes with a few other lovely upgrades. Upon completion there was the kind of dust that lingered in a thick haze. I was breaking down at everything. My temperament quickly changed. It was like, Vivian what are we having for dinner? My explosive response would be, "dinner,what the fuck dinner? Mind you the explosive responses it does not take much to put you on the receiving end of something like this. I know a lot of my anger was displaced with the true fear of knowing that I had contonous inner doubt about completing Ironman 70.3.
Then there is all the eating. My stress levels have me eating in an out of control manner. I have put on 10lbs. + the 30lbs I am already trying to take off from this past winter has me with my lip up but unwilling to get down to it and get under control. I have to be mentally ready and right now I am not there. It does piss me off that last summers running shorts don't come over my thighs. This is also making the physical activity a bit more struggling. My body carrying more weight does not help the whole balancing a watermelon on toothpick theory.
Yesterday, was my rock bottom. After taking it too easy on last weeks vacation only doing open water swims. I came home with the desire to do nothing. I was supposed to do my long bike ride on Monday but Lil' Buster came home with a horrible ear infection and perforated ear drum accompanied with several sleepless nights. I had to keep him home to take care of him. So Tuesday it was going to be the morning to hit up a swim, and you guessed nope. By late afternoon I put my pj's on with no intention of anymore workouts hoping Wednesday spin class would get a bit of life in me. Only because I work that class if not there would be no intention of that either. I posted on my facebook how I had no ganas (no desire) in Spanish. Several of my friends encouraged me to get out there. Even my dear coach hit me up with a guilt stricken, "so does this mean we won't see you at track tonight?" She knows what track means to me. It is my favorite group workout. Not that I am doing any speedwork now but seeing the gang, watching everyone work so hard, pushing each other to new levels is always encouraging. It is also the place where healthy I see my fastest paces. It is always promising to see improvement in my running. In fact I can usually be seen smiling when healthy at track. Key word running my first love who has been trying to break up with me as of late.
I will take those road blocks as hurdles and keep jumping them all the way to the finish line. It will not be easy and that morning I am sure I will still have more fear than ever. The fear has stared already when I think of a 7-8 hour day on April 5th. I mean I know people who can't work a desk job that long without a lunch break or at least a smoke break. No breaks for me though. I will be striving to reach my goal of becoming Ironman 70.3. If my health deteriorates or something I have no control over happens that day or leading up to, I will understand that my goal has been postponed not abolished.







